Before leaving New York, I had decided to make a point of visiting the former site of the World Trade Center, now called Ground Zero after the terrorist attack of September 11, 2001 in New York. The previous afternoon, while walking around the city with my cousin Marla, I had mentioned that I was planning to go to Ground Zero on Sunday afternoon. She mentioned that, despite living in New York for over a year, she still had not managed to visit the site yet; she had mixed feelings about visiting it and wasn’t sure she could go down there. Still, I was determined to see the site.
This would actually be my second experience of seeing the site of the World Trade Center. In early November 2001, I was in Princeton, New Jersey on business. I remember seeing the smoke from the site when I arrived at the airport in Newark for that trip, just short of two months after the attacks. However, on my flight home from Newark, I was seated in the first row of first class on the right side of the plane, with four windows to myself. As we took off, heading north and then turning east, the sun was just beginning to set, and the high-intensity lights illuminating Ground Zero for the 24-hour-a-day clean-up were already illuminated. Through my bay of windows on the plane, I got an incredible panoramic view looking down, almost directly, into the site, and could clearly see the still-smoldering wreckage of what had once been two of the tallest office buildings ever built. It was quite a sobering experience, but nothing compared to what I experienced two years later when I actually set foot on the site.
So, on Sunday afternoon, I set out from the 42nd Street subway station on the train heading to the southern tip of Manhattan. After exiting the subway, I proceed south down the street toward the site. As I walked, I remembered where I was when I first heard of the attacks on that Tuesday morning nearly 2.5 years before; I remembered driving to work and being frustrated with the traffic because it was making me late for a meeting with a client. I could hear, in my mind, the radio DJ describing what was happening in New York as I sat at the corner of Richmond Aveue and Rodgerdale Street in west Houston, waiting for the light to change.
A block or two into my walk, I noticed the east side of St. Paul’s Chapel and realized I was growing closer. My heart raced as I walked over to the church and intensely studied the large timeline of the September 11 terrorist attack and St. Paul’s response to it, which is displayed outside the church’s east entrance. After viewing the timeline, I stepped inside to the 18th-century building’s sanctuary. Along the outer walls of the sanctuary, tables and display cases have been set up to exhibit the parish’s response to the tragedy across the street. One of the first displays I looked at included dozens, if not hundreds, of programs from funerals and memorial services of World Trade Center victims. I was immediately struck by the dates of birth and photos on some of these programs; many of these victims were about my age. I was suddenly hit with the thought, "This could have been me." Had history taken a slightly different course, I could have just as easily been one of the thousands who reported to work that morning in those buildings, people who had no idea their lives would be taken from them before lunchtime. In 2001 I was traveling almost non-stop for work, spending over 120 nights away from home and logging nearly 50,000 flight miles. It could have been me on one of those planes. Instantly, my eyes started to tear up; fortunately, tissue boxes were located on just about every table and pew in the sanctuary. I spent the next half hour reviewing the rest of the displays and exhibits in the sanctuary. The response of this church to the needs across the street were a reminder to me of what religion and Christianity are all about – care for others in their time of need. The parallels between St. Paul’s Chapel and my own congregation back home in Houston, Bering Memorial United Methodist, were obvious to me. In the 1980s and early 1990s, when AIDS was running rampant throughout Houston and nobody seemed to care, Bering, located in the heart of the city’s gay and lesbian community, stepped up and created counseling, day care, dental care, and hospice care for those affected by that plague. Similarly, with death, destruction, and desperation all around, St. Paul’s Chapel quickly found its place in ministry in the days after 9-11 by providing a place of rest and renewal for those involved in the rescue and clean-up efforts. For eight months, the church was open 24 hours a day. Workers came to this small church for meals, counseling, massages, prayer, meditation, sleep, and emotional support during their time of greatest need.
I then exited St. Paul’s Chapel through its west entrance into the churchyard, where many colonial residents of Manhattan are buried. I could see down the slight incline of the churchyard to the site of the World Trade Center. News reports in the days after 9-11 described St. Paul’s, but I had never really understood how close this little church was to the World Trade Center. It’s literally right across the street. When you see the visible scars still on buildings all around the site, it is absolutely a miracle that St. Paul’s is still standing. It almost seems that it would be nothing short of divine intervention that it’s not only still standing, but that it came through the destruction that surrounded it with only very minor damage. A large Sycamore tree in the churchyard took the force of the towers collapsing and shielded the church building. The stump of this tree was on display in the churchyard; imbedded in it were chunks of concrete, metal, and other debris from the World Trade Center towers. In its place, the Tree of Hope, a Norway spruce, was planted in 2003 to commemorate the site and replace the sycamore that was destroyed on 9-11.
I then walked across the street to the site of the World Trade Center. Now surrounded by a tall steel fence, the site bears little resemblance to the pictures I’d seen in books and magazines of what the area looked like when the twin towers stood here. Sign boards attached to the fence listed the names of all of the victims of that awful day. All around buildings, sidewalks, and streets bore the still-visible scars of the collapse of the towers. I was struck by the quietness of the place; an hour or so before I had been in Times Square. In stark contrast, the crowds here were small. People whispered instead of yelling. Cars didn’t honk their horns. The sounds of traffic, people, and city noise were eerily absent. Some wept while a few people knelt and prayed; nearby, a New York resident described his experience of running from the site as the first tower collapsed to some out of town friends. The feeling of being in this place, on that ground, was something I had felt only once before, when I visited the Oklahoma City bombing memorial in early 2001; a place that until 9-1,1 was the site of the worst terrorist incident on US soil in our history. Part of me was angry that this had happened, and that there was so much hatred and intolerance in the world, and yet part of me could not help but feel a spiritual presence in this place. Later, after I had returned home, I was describing my visit to a friend who had visited Ground Zero about 3 months before me. We agreed that no matter what you believed, it was impossible to visit the site and not feel the presence of a higher power and the souls of those who were taken before their time on that day.
I completed my visit to the site by walking across the skywalk to Battery Park City and visiting the Winter Garden, the glass atrium across the street that was heavily damaged by the collapsing towers. As I left the area, I couldn’t help but feel glad I had visited the site. During the previous hour, I had cried. My stomach had cramped. I had felt the experience of being in that place in every part of my body. Yet, as I walked away, I did so with the feeling that there was hope and that life does go on-and I renewed my pledge that I would always stand up against the sort of hate and intolerance that led people to do things like what happened on 9-11.